Ok I am still up in wt but I went off track some what this weekend so it is to be expected. I was 123 last week at this time so that is a positive. If I do two pounds a week I should be about 114lbs for the wedding shower. Since the wedding will be smaller than they family thought, we were un-invited. I is actually a good thing since between gifting, new clothes and a hotel for 2 weddings would have been expensive. My mom did have a great idea that my husband and I go to Boston with them for the first wedding and just visit it as tourists. I would really like to do that since we have not been on a real vaction ever.
My husband is now on a new medication that seems to be working very well. The insurance company want a prior authorition before they will pay for it but I found a coupon for one free month of the drugs website so he started it and hopefully he will be approved before he runs out. He hasn't really been motivated to do much latly. He says he is bored and wants to get out of the house but dosent have the follow through with anything. I found a few things I knew he would be interested in but he doesn't that the plunge and actually look into it or anything. I can only recommend things I can't make him go or do the activity.
Same hing with my family, they have reset themselves to a destructive mode and instead of changing they just carry on and act like this is the only choice they have. If my parents would just give my sister and utlamatim to grow up or move out I know things would be improved some what at least. But instead my brother in law totals a car and no one says anything.
Eh I have to get back to work and charge my phone for now.
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Saturday, February 25, 2012
120.1
I hate that I am up, even if it is only .2 that I am up. I am aware in my rational brain that it is just a matter of water balance in my body but still I was out of the 120's and I want to stay out. So I have to keep up today with everything and make sure I am down tomorrow.
I was o stressed yesterday about money it sucks. I went over my credit limit so that I could get gas and I wrote a check that wil be bouncing. I called the place I wrote it for and asked if I could use a different payment option but the guy said it was too late. I might stop there after work and ask again.
This sucks.
I was o stressed yesterday about money it sucks. I went over my credit limit so that I could get gas and I wrote a check that wil be bouncing. I called the place I wrote it for and asked if I could use a different payment option but the guy said it was too late. I might stop there after work and ask again.
This sucks.
Friday, February 24, 2012
119.9
Yes, out of the 120's! After the mechanic yesterday I did not eat anything, ok I had 4 shreaded wheat, and I wt myself. When I saw the same number on the scale as I saw at the begining of my day I knew I could hold off on eating. So I did the logical thing; I took 2 diurectics and chugged 20 oz of water. I don't mind waking up to use the bathroom when I sleep and I was graced with 119.9! I need to keep this momentum going no back tracking. So my plan:
I have my shreaded wheat and two veggie burgers with me, however, I had a small dixie cup of regular tosdidos scoops to settle my stomach. I am going with 100 calories. I had the worst heartburn I have ever had before work tonight. I had just taken all my pills for the morning, 2 prosac, 1 bronkaid, and 1 no doz, when it hit me hard. So I chewed on tums, then some more, then a few more and finally it has gone away. I had planned on eating breakfast when I woke up but I was in such pain I really couldn't. I had the chips thinking the starch and fat would help keep the acid down, although I should have had my cereal instead. Oh well can't change that but I must not let it continue the rest of the day. I must stop at my parents house after work today, I really need $100. My mom said she could pay me back on 3/1 but the car repairs were more than I had and I ended up writing a check that I don't have enough money to cover. Awesome, I feel like such a wonderful, stable, responsible adult. Going to my parents house is like walking in a war torn country with land mines. You know it is a dangerous task but you can hope you don't step on a trigger. I know there will be food on the dinning room table, the kitchen counter and the kitchen table. You know a normal Friday morning. Oh and since they moved to a smaller house all that food is in a 20 feet radius. So I will go in the house and make sure I don't eat anything! I just have to stop by and see how mom is doing after her surgery, see my grandma and some how get $100. No biggie right?
I have my shreaded wheat and two veggie burgers with me, however, I had a small dixie cup of regular tosdidos scoops to settle my stomach. I am going with 100 calories. I had the worst heartburn I have ever had before work tonight. I had just taken all my pills for the morning, 2 prosac, 1 bronkaid, and 1 no doz, when it hit me hard. So I chewed on tums, then some more, then a few more and finally it has gone away. I had planned on eating breakfast when I woke up but I was in such pain I really couldn't. I had the chips thinking the starch and fat would help keep the acid down, although I should have had my cereal instead. Oh well can't change that but I must not let it continue the rest of the day. I must stop at my parents house after work today, I really need $100. My mom said she could pay me back on 3/1 but the car repairs were more than I had and I ended up writing a check that I don't have enough money to cover. Awesome, I feel like such a wonderful, stable, responsible adult. Going to my parents house is like walking in a war torn country with land mines. You know it is a dangerous task but you can hope you don't step on a trigger. I know there will be food on the dinning room table, the kitchen counter and the kitchen table. You know a normal Friday morning. Oh and since they moved to a smaller house all that food is in a 20 feet radius. So I will go in the house and make sure I don't eat anything! I just have to stop by and see how mom is doing after her surgery, see my grandma and some how get $100. No biggie right?
Thursday, February 23, 2012
waiting...
So here I am waiting as my car gets about $600.00 worth of stuff done to it. I say stuff because I came in for an oil change and I knew the brakes had something wrong with them. I ofcourse was hoping it was a cheap fix, its not, oh and duh! the shocks also had to be replaced. Awesome.
On a happy note I have only had 550cals for the day and I am going to try to have something really filling but low in calories when I finally get home. I am thinking my bean wrap which is: yummy, filling, and only 130 calories. That is if I feel I need to have something to eat. I am aiming for a lot of fiber for the next month or so because I need to have blood work done and I had high cholesterol a few years back when I was a binge eater. I was able to lower it to the healthy range but it has now been a year and its time to see how it is now. And I stil have to lose at least 5.9lbs before the bridal shower. And find an outfit to wear. It must make me look thin and sophisticated. That's asking a lot. Please if any one reads this I am open to suggestions, in fact please give me some ideas. I mean I guess I can look for a dress but I don't know. Oh well I better start looking.
Well that's all for now except by checking recent body comps I realized I went from 29.5 lbs of fat to 26.8 which is a loss of 2.7! Awesome drop but so much more to go.
On a happy note I have only had 550cals for the day and I am going to try to have something really filling but low in calories when I finally get home. I am thinking my bean wrap which is: yummy, filling, and only 130 calories. That is if I feel I need to have something to eat. I am aiming for a lot of fiber for the next month or so because I need to have blood work done and I had high cholesterol a few years back when I was a binge eater. I was able to lower it to the healthy range but it has now been a year and its time to see how it is now. And I stil have to lose at least 5.9lbs before the bridal shower. And find an outfit to wear. It must make me look thin and sophisticated. That's asking a lot. Please if any one reads this I am open to suggestions, in fact please give me some ideas. I mean I guess I can look for a dress but I don't know. Oh well I better start looking.
Well that's all for now except by checking recent body comps I realized I went from 29.5 lbs of fat to 26.8 which is a loss of 2.7! Awesome drop but so much more to go.
120.9
Wt. 120.9
Fm. 26.8lbs
F% 22.3%
H2o 56.7%
B% 6.2%
Bmi 21.3
I was so happy with the scale! I was only hoping to be be 122. Yesterday I did extremly good, in fact I felt pretty good too. I think 4 bronks and 2 no doz is a good combo for me. So far today I have not eaten anything. I have 2 veggie burgers and shreaded wheat that I brought with me and one of my co workers brought in baby carrots (and junk food) so I have plently of choices tonight. After work I need to go get my oil changed so I want to eat something before I leave work. I don't want to be starving when I finally get home and end up eating too too much.
Fm. 26.8lbs
F% 22.3%
H2o 56.7%
B% 6.2%
Bmi 21.3
I was so happy with the scale! I was only hoping to be be 122. Yesterday I did extremly good, in fact I felt pretty good too. I think 4 bronks and 2 no doz is a good combo for me. So far today I have not eaten anything. I have 2 veggie burgers and shreaded wheat that I brought with me and one of my co workers brought in baby carrots (and junk food) so I have plently of choices tonight. After work I need to go get my oil changed so I want to eat something before I leave work. I don't want to be starving when I finally get home and end up eating too too much.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
123
Ok I was up in wt when I woke up but that is due to eating right before I went to sleep since I had a ton of errands to run. So before bed I ate, took some laxitives, took some diurectics and drank about 30 oz of water. So I woke up to 123. Wasn't too upset and then hee at work my stomach felt a bit odd, and ten I remembered the laxitives. So I took a hugh bm ( sorry tmi) which made me feel so much lighter. I also altered my bronkaid intake and took one with a no doz when I woke up, again 4 hours later, then I took one by itself around 2 hours later and I can't decide if I should take the next one with or without the no doz. No doz makes me jittery if I take to much- oh and bitchy too! Not enough xanax in the world to make people less annoying. Anyway, I just have to stay on track for the rest of the day. I will be awake for about 8 more hours so wish me luck!
Ok I also did a body comp when I woke up even though I was going to try to hold off on doing one.
123 wt
28.2 fat lbs
23% fat
56.2% h2o
6.2% bone mass
21.7 bmi
Ok I also did a body comp when I woke up even though I was going to try to hold off on doing one.
123 wt
28.2 fat lbs
23% fat
56.2% h2o
6.2% bone mass
21.7 bmi
Monday, February 20, 2012
122.5
Ok back on track, I love when mondays start fresh. I was really good yesterday and dropped one lb so I am starting this week with 122.5. I have four weeks to get down to 113 or so. Technically very do-able. I wrote donw my body comp with fat mass and everything and did my husbands too. The paper is in the bathroom and I want to do a new body comp on myself every week.
I feel so lazy right now. I slept for 9.5 hours and I should feel well rested but instead I just want to curl up and go back to sleep. So here I am at work sitting in the comfy chair with the feeling that staing awake is a horrible way to spend the next 7 hours. However, I am going to take this oppertunity to relax and try to do nothing. I am very bad at doing nothing, I am great at sleeping, but just sitting and doing nothing is much harder. Knowing my patterns I am sure that by 2am I will be more awake and actually want to either read one of my books or try to read some blogs to get me motivated to stay on track. Eh.
I feel so lazy right now. I slept for 9.5 hours and I should feel well rested but instead I just want to curl up and go back to sleep. So here I am at work sitting in the comfy chair with the feeling that staing awake is a horrible way to spend the next 7 hours. However, I am going to take this oppertunity to relax and try to do nothing. I am very bad at doing nothing, I am great at sleeping, but just sitting and doing nothing is much harder. Knowing my patterns I am sure that by 2am I will be more awake and actually want to either read one of my books or try to read some blogs to get me motivated to stay on track. Eh.
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