Venus

It happened again

So I had told myself that I needed to set a limit with my husband and what I would not be able to tolerate.   I gave him my list and told him I would not continue to live like this.   Little short lived changes but nothing really happened.   Saturday he hit me.  I am done.  I have given him so many chances and tried everything I could help him but nothing has changed.   We have been married 7 years. 
Logistically I have decided that I am going to sell my diamond engagement ring and some of the other jewelry he has bought me over the years and give the money to him so he can move somewhere.   I don't think he can live alone so I don't know what I can do regarding where he can live but that is the shit I am going to figure out this week.   I haven't said it out loud yet.  And the only people who know I was trying to figure this out are my therapist, my counselor and a friend.   No one has any idea what the past 7 years have been like and how bad it really gets.  But I am done.  I have tried everything I could but I can't continue like this.

I am the woman I am today because of the girl I use to be.