really?

What the hell am I doing? I am going to be 30 this summer, this is not the life I expected. There are a lot of positives that I never expected which is great but then there is the other stuff. I am talking about the stuff that if I knew it was going on in the life of someone I knew I would be devastated and shocked. X and I have been talking about having children- I started to visualize what life would be like. I have two very different