fast

Well I decided that I needed to do a fruit veg and nut fast again like I did last year. I started it after I gained about 3lbs of water wt and freaked a bit. I haven't told x that I am doing it. He hasn't been doing too great. We had to put one of our dogs to sleep and it really effected him. On the other hand I had been preparing for it and I feel guilty for being a bit relieved. That dog was a source of a lot of stress and worry and in a horrible way life is a little easier. I love that dog and making that choice to put him to sleep was awful and I cried and felt so horrible for choicing death for him over all his medical problems but I had prepared myself. X and I has come to the desision that if he got that sick again we would do it. I wish he would have stayed healthy but he was not really living.
Anyway...
The first day of the cleanse went great until x wanted to go out to eat. I picked the place and was able to follow my set plan until he kept wanting me to try a bite of this and a bite of that. All of it was good I just didn't want it them. But I did. The second day was super easy and today is day three. I don't know how long I will keep on it but I wanted atleast three days.