I feel like such a wreck. Living two different lives is getting old. I need to take action. I did something today that is upsetting me. Trigger warning.
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I threw up. I haven't done that in so fucking long. It started as an accident but I didn't stop myself. I woke up early for work and made myself something to eat. After eating I went to the bathroom to style my hair and brush my teeth. I wasn't feeling great and started to cough. I SHOULD HAVE left the bathroom and done some deep breathing but I didn't. It was gross. I thought about doing it earlier this week also but I stopped myself that time. I think this was a wake up call to myself. I am not happy and I need to make the uncomfortable changes in my life. I refuse to go backwards in my life.
I'm going through something similar. I have to make decisions about my relationship that I really don't want to do and it's making me physically nauseated. Why do we do these things to ourselves?
ReplyDeleteI got comfortable in my uncomfortable situation. Don't make the same mistake as me.
ReplyDeleteHi Josie, just wanted to check in with you
ReplyDeleteI see you haven't posted in a few weeks
I hope you're ok
Sending you love and strength x
Thanks Ruby, I am still reading everyone's blog but I haven't had the energy to really write about life, you know what is really going on in my life. Sometimes I just want to pretend everything is okay. It's not but I have started to formulate a plan to change all that.
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