hungry

Well I am at under 400cals for the day and I just need to eat something small before I go t bed. Thank god I am finaly done with my errands.

opps

I saved the post I was working on by mistake oh well. I found a nail file in my purse so I can type how I normally can. I wish I had some carrots to munch on right now but instead my coworkers brought pie and reddi whip in. Really?! Luckey me I don't like fruit pies but I do love reddi whip. I just have to stay on track. Maybe I can avoid eating my soup till 6 or 7 so that when I get home I won't be hungry, well even if I am I just have to think about the pay off. I can't be this t for new years, I must get back down! No excuses.

really?

How is it that I had less than 800cals and I didn't lose wt? Well if my body wants to play games fine I will play too. So far today I have had less than 200cals. I have my soup here at work but i will not have it unil 6am the earlest.
I cut my nails yesterday and my one thumb nail is typing funny, I can't type as fast as inormally do and it is really bothering me!

126.3

Ug I feel like a fat ass for being happy with getting "down to" 126.3. I can't believe I let myself get this fat again. I have four weeks until a all girls day out at which I MUST be at 120lbs. Or less. Then three weeks unitl new years where I would like to be 116lb.s. that is still way too much but it will have to do I guess. I have to get back to 110 and then 103 and then 99!
126=22.3
120=21.3
116=20.5
110=19.5
105=18.6
So 20lbs is what I have to lose and then a few more for insurance.

128 ugh

Ok I did really well yesterday, I stayed under 1000cals but the last thing I ate was high in sodium so I guess I was a bit bloated on the scale. Tonight I came into work early and I am hungry but I can't stand the idea of being this weight for the family event. Gross. Sob I am trying really hard and I am very motivated to be back at 110 by new years eve. I know I look good there even if I want to be lower 110 is the first major goal. Seven weeks so it would be 2.5lbs a week. That will be hard but 2lbs a week would be 114 which isn't horrible but ok. My stomach is growling right now but I am going to wait till2 am to eat and have my homemade high fiber soup. I also have a banana, a fiber bar and a kashi bar for later on but I want to space it all out.
More later...

128 ugh

back on track

So I got a new phone and I like it but the keyboard is hard to get used to. It is going to take awhile to get the hang of it.
My wieght has not been this high in years since I stopped binge eating, sadly I started back. But I have been doing well for two whole days so I am feeling abit better. Unfortunatly I have a family event this weekend and I don't feel like I can wear the dress I planned to wear.