I feel extra gross

I feel so gross right now. I got my period after not having it for awhile and I am in so much pain. It feels like am having all the cramps that I missed all at once. I am just sitting here at work and I plan on having a relaxing night, which means it will be a crazy night instead. We have a full unit which is good (20 patients), however they are a very sickly group. We have three patients on watch and I am watching one patient who is on watch for her own safety. However, at least three other patients should also be on watch, one is wandering into other rooms and laying in beds, another cannot get out of bed by herself because she only has one leg, and the third one is laying on the floor in the hallway refusing to move. So it might be a busier night than i want, but I really can't complain I am at work afterall so I should expect to work. On the food front I am trying to get back on a healthy track. I have been eating nonstop crap and comfort foods since August and it is not healthy. I went grocery shopping and bought a lot of my basics to keep things simple. I made a rule for myself that I will not have any cereal except my high fiber shreaded wheat which I eat dry at work. Cereal is on of my favorite comfort foods and I usually end up bingeing on it so a had and fast rule is needed. That is the only strict rule, I fear that if I make too many rules I will end up failing. My wt has been steady at 123.4 for days now and my favorite work pants are tight. I want to get back down to 110lbs, I felt the best at that wt. I mean I am sure I would feel even better lower than that but let's get there first. Ofcourse I am adament about getting myself back on track during holiday time but why would I ever do anything the easy way?