116.4

Ugh...

114.6

Oh how I love mexican food. That is why I am up .2 and not down in wt. But today is a new day and breakfast was peanuts and only one diet pill because the ones I am taking now don't seem to be agreeing with me, they either cause me to flush and get ichy or get nausous. Not my idea of fun either way. So I decided to only take one and see how that works.
Let's see its almost noon so I need to shower and then run to the grocery store. I have to go out with my parents and hubby tonight and only bad food will be avaiable from 5 on. So for the rest of the day I need to watch what I eat and take precautions.
Eh.

114.4

Well this week has sucked.

115

Ok so yesterday went great until 8:30 at night. I had only salad all day long until then. At night it was so late and I was tired so I ate some peanuts, too many though. But can't change that. So today I will again try to keep it under control. Only thing is X took chicken out to defrost yesterday and wants to cook it tonight. Maybe I can get him to do a stirfry with just veggies, the only thing is the sodium. Ugh. Well I guess I will just drink a ton and take a diuretic to try to avoid the bloat.

115.4 ok new start

Ok its monday and a fresh start. Let's see today I can stick to veggies, fruit ( I bought bananas), almond milk (makes yummy frozen treats), and sugar free icepops. Oh and I bought a ton of gum too. So I plan on drinking 2.5 liters of diet soda and taking my diet pills and diuretics. My period is basically over so now I have NO excuses.
I must lose this last amount of wt!
First Goal: 110
Second Goal:105
Its all so close I know I can do it.
So here I go...

115

Ugh back up. Ok so the wedding was wonderful and I lokked good in my tight dress but oh the food. I did great during the coaktail hour and mealtime. I had some cheese and a breadstick with butter. My steak was fatty so I only ate a small amout and I didn't like the pasta dish either. Then came the sweets. YUM! A bit too much. Then breakfast of pancakes. Oh and then I got my period.
So now starts a new begining. I will lose atleast 5 more lbs.
Oh and I had to see my therapist who wanted to wt me, I was bloated and wearing heavy shoes and jeans so it clocked in at 119. So I know that will be an issuse that will been looked at next time. But I will be prepared next time.
Ok I have to start my day I guess- have to go to the store need diet soda!

the aftermath

Ok so my bday didn't turn out how I had imagined. It wasn't the worst because it really was a great day for my hubby but not really my thing. I picked him up at 4:30 and brought him back at 5:30. I met him later at around 7:15 and we stayed till almost midnight. He was so happy so that made things more ok. But I ate one big pb cookie and french fries!
The next day was half of a donut and half a pb cookie, then wedding food for 6 hours! I did ok until desserts. Ugh! Oh a pancakes this morning. So the rest of the day the goal is 100 oz of fluid and I took some stool softeners ao clean out. Tomorrow starts again. Lots of fluid and veggies. Tuesday I will get my period so I am so bloated, I hope when I wt myself I am hoping for 115.6 - a 2lb gain and hopefully no more!
I am hungry now and I might have a veggie buger and run to the store to get supplies for the next few days. Yay!

oh the aftermath

Ok so I went away over night for the wedding and I knew there would be a lot of food but wow!

113.4

Well happy bday to me. I a bit cranky right now. I woke up an my husband was in a panic over our dog. All I had to do was bring him to the vet to get some antibotics so I called and got an appointment. No big deal except my hubby couldn't go with me because of a class he wanted to take at the same time in town. So I droped off my hubby and brought the dog to the vet. I then brought the dog home and printed directions for tomorrow. I thought the class would be over at 2 so I went to the mall and walked around, I wanted to check on a dress a bought and see if they had it in a different color-they don't. Now it is 3:20 and I am still waiting for my hubby.
I have a feeling this bday is not going to feel very special. He wants to go to a show at 6:30 that will last til 10:30. That means at most I am going to have from what 3:30 to 6:30? And I doubt it will even be that long. How wonderful. So much for a nice lunch out or really anything ment for me. Ugh like I said I am cranky.

113.4

Yay! So excited. My bday is tomorrow and I would love to be 113 or less. I think I can do it, although I am pmsing right now.
Goal for the day will be handful of nuts for breakfast, veggie burger and salad mid afternoon, then celery in the evening. Hopefully I can stick to it.

113.8

Ok so last night sucked yet again. X woke me up last night and the night before because of stupid stuff. The first night was him spilling his cereal on our bed at 4am. Last night I woke up to him passed out with crap everywhere. The bathroom was a mess with pee on the floor(!), junk all over the counters and the computer on with music playing kind of loud. So I am a bit craky right now.

114.2 blah

Ugh I knew I ate too much yesterday too late at night. But today has been really good:one handful of peanuts, one veggie burger, celery, and some vanillia almond milk. That is my new favorite product I think. 40kcals per 8oz serving and all it needs is some splenda. Right now I have a cup of it in the freezer to see how it will be frozen.
Right now I think I am around 400 kcals for the day and I am full! Also I am watching Ruby on the style network and after that is Too Fat for 15; which is good I won't feel like eating while those shows are on.

later...

Ok so I had two veggie bugers and I am kind of hungry right now. I think I will go cut up my celery now so that I don't en up eating too many calories.
Ok instead I had a big big salad mainly with broccili slaw that I bought the other night it was really good. But now I have that "full" feeling and I am worried that my wt will be up. My plan for the rest of the night is to push fluid- I already had 68 oz and flush my system. Hopefully that will help me hit 113.8!

114!

Awesome. I hit 114 this morning and I told myselfi will be strict with myself today to make sure I have some progress for tomorrow. Anyway I have had some soy milk, carrots,lettuce and a half of a banana so far today. I am hungry right now so I think I will make a veggie buger to really fill me up an then I have celery for tonight.
I can't wait to see what the scale will say tomorrow.

114.8

Eh, I should be content with that but I my bday is soon and I want to be 110. I know that isn't realistic but I am going to aim for as low as possible.

114.8

Eh, I should be content with that but I my bday is soon and I want to be 110. I know that isn't realistic but I am going to aim for as low as possible.

no wt yet...

I am waiting to wt myself since my hubby is in the shower right now. I had the dates mixed up so today is the exhibit and we still plan on going. Food wise wasn't great yesterday but I kept in control. I did have a few things that were not needed at all. A handful or two of sunflower seeds, the cream from on oreo and popcorn at night. Ugh let's hope for 114.6 but I think it will be 115.

back to 114.6

My husband is in a ba emoitional space right now and has wanted "bad" food this week. Ofcourse the day I hit 114.6 he wants pizza - I ha two slices of thin crust for abour 400 kcal. Next time only one! If I didn't eat the pizza with him it would have lead to a long discussion on not getting it at all and he really wanted it after his 5 hour visit for an dr visit. Last night he wanted mcd's and I picked it up for him. It was 4:30 and I hadn't eaten anything yet, but I was able to not eat even one fry! That is a hugh deal I love those fries but I was rewarded this morning with a low wt. Today I hope goes as well but who knows. We don't have any set plans but I want to go to an exhibit in town that is free today and then to my parents for awhile. That last part will be tricky foodwise but I really like being with my grandma an the kids.
Ok here's to a great day.
P.S. X cut himself again yesterday, he did it earlier this month too.

114.6

Yay, I am so excited to see the 114's. Yesterday was super easy to start with but then I had a major slip. I was taking my gradma to a dr appointment at 11am so I knew afterwards we would go for lunch. I didn't have breakfast and I had a grilled chicken ceasar salada - no dressing, I only ate a small amount of chicken and maybe 4 croutons and took a iet pill. Then when I was home an I got hungry I told myself just a handful or two of the honey roasted nuts but instead I ate most of the can! Ugh I was so mad at myself, this is why I don't eat from the container anymore. But I took two diet pills and drank almost double the fliuded I need in a day and it turned out ok.
Today is going to be a long day. Right now X is in an appointment that could take 2-3 hours and I am waiting in a room with 3 chairs and one parenting magizine- that's it. The bathroom is on a different floor in this old office building so I am trying not to chugg my huge drink I have. After this I am taking my nephew to an appointment that should take 2 hours or so. That means I won't be home till 3 the earliest. By then I will be super hungry so I am going to steam some of the asian veggies I bought and maybe eat a veggie burger too.
Ugh it hasn't even been an hour yet.

115.2

Yay! Progress. Ok so now I have to stay on track and go lower. My goal today is fruit,veg, and one handful of nuts. The nuts are for breakfast and I am eating them now. I am aiming for 7 glasses of fluid- 12 oz glasses. I am on glass 2.