yay i got my period

eh, wt was down one more pound on my home scale but nothing here at work which sucks. i also wanted to take some laxitives but since i got my period i am going to wait as i dont want to have to deal with both issues at once. but i would like to have a bm this, that would be nice. oh well i just have to think about the big picture, i lost four lbs this week so far and it is only wednesday. i was a bit disapointed in myself last night. i had my salad for dinner and i was still wanting something sweet so i had a chocolate protein bar. i wasnt hungry i was just craving. so i broke my veggie fast. i know its not really a big deal it was only 140cals but still its the fact that i didnt need it. so far today has been lots of salad and one tiny spoonful of peanut butter. i could have /should have done without the pb but i am weak. on the way to work i stopped and bought the giant bag of salad to eat while i was here. i will bring it home and eat the rest for dinner that way i can stay on track. although X might want to eat a real dinner, he might not though because he is having a rough day. he "blacked out" as we call it, which means one of his alternate personalities came out for awhile today. that normally knocks out all his energy, which means no gym and no cooked dinner. i am kind of disapointed that i havent been able to go to the gym but i am sure we will get back on track going soon.
ugh i am so full of salad righ now, eh.

ok what the hell? i am sitting here at work waiting to start teaching my normal wednesday night class and in walks a man. he was looking for our owner to give him calanders and pens. since i am here alone i took the stuff and the guy gives me 3 big chocolate covered cookies! are you kidding me? i can't believe that i am now sitting here at work and i have access to cookies that will tempt me for the rest of the day. it is bad enough that i have chocolate protein bars and protien snack bags that taste super yummy that i am trying to avoid - that is why i ate so much salad so that i wouldnt have room to eat anything! ugh. really who gives cookies to the wt loss center?